Thursday, December 6, 2007

Life verse

1 Corinthians 1:26-28 (New International Version)

26Brothers, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. 27But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. 28He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are.

I have not been around much because I am battling a moderately severe bout of depression and it's been difficult to put even a single cohesive paragraph together. I am also accepting defeat and acknowledging I need help to deal with it, whether it comes in the form of a pill, talk therapy, or something else. I posted the above verses because they truly have become a lifeline to me, a way to remind myself that no matter what I go through in this life, God chose me to be His daughter, His servant, long before I was born and He can use even my weaknesses, including this depression, for His glory. I am not particularly wise or influential and whatever bloodline link I might have to European nobility/royalty has been "watered down" to nothing. I make mistakes that cause pain to myself and the people I love and I get angry when things don't go the way I think they ought. But God shows me time after time that regardless of how the world feels about this middle-aged homemaker who limps through life, He loves me and He can make something meaningful out of my life. And dear hearts, if He's willing to do that for me, imagine what He can do in your lives too.

God bless you, every one of you.

2 comments:

WAM said...

Ah Crownring..take each day, one at a time. Great verse- remember: Keep it simple, and keep busy.

Blessings,
Wolfi

Wert.the.Wolf said...

I can't relate, sorry. :( But I can give advice and encouragement. :D

and song ideas. You might like Myself by Fireflight. It has a little to do with depression, I guess.

Evanescence, while you would think it would help, so does not. It only makes it worse, worse, worse. It seems friendly because it relates to you. It's sad music! BUT while it does relate to you, it only gets you down more. I advise listening to Christian music, even if you don't think it'll help. It will. Turning on Fireflight in the background will help! Only recently have I fully recuperated after Mists of Avalon, and only after I STOPPED listening to Evanescence. It's rage music. When you're mad, or when you're sad. It can break you down to nothing, trust me, I know. It really doesn't make you feel better. Just like Wam said, keep it simple. Don't go making more things for your soul to fight against. I did...Mists of Avalon. Under normal circumstances, that book wouldn't have chipped me. BUT, that was while my grandma was dying...it got in my weak spots. Broke me down to just about nothing, and only the love of Jesus saved me...and only recently did I truly renew my vows to be a Christian. I was wandering EVER SINCE then. How long has it been? Over a summer, either way. From May to November? That's what it can do to you! I'm warning you not to listen to Evanescence, just stick with Christ. You might think it's over. Trust me. It's not.

Hey...guess I can relate after all.